Ciru Muriuki On Fighting Depression: ‘I’ve Just Not Been Okay’

BBC journalist Ciru Muriuki has been fighting depression and mental illness for a while now, a key reason why she hasn’t been on social media lately.

In a video posted on Instagram, the former host of The Trend also revealed that she has been struggling with weight issues but is trying to regain her old body back.

“I’ve put on quite a bit of weight and I’m not really loving myself physically right now because I’m at the absolute biggest I’ve ever been,” she said.

“You know when you can just be walking past your mirror and I’m like, ‘what is that rhino? I have a rhino in my room…oh, No, it’s me.'”

Adding weight has crushed her self esteem, another reason she hasn’t posted much online.

“So I’ve really been struggling with my self image and if you’re not feeling good about yourself you’re not going to be posting that many pictures of yourself, are you? But I’m working on it.”

Mental health is largely neglected in Africa. According to UN, about a fourth of the Kenyan population of 44 million suffer from a range of mental diseases, including schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders, bipolar disorder, depression and severe anxiety.

Ciru, also an endometriosis warrior, spoke about her current mental state, and how it has affected her motivation and general operation.

“I’ve been struggling a bit with my mental health; I’ve had moments of great anxiety; I’ve had a couple of depressed moments…” she said.

“Okay, I’m understating it, when I say depressed moments it sounds like I felt down for 4 minutes and that’s not the case.

“I’ve had periods of days and days turning into weeks that I’ve just not been Okay. And because I’ve not been Okay I’ve not had the motivation to do much else other than work and sleep, and social media has had to take a backseat.”

Watch the video below:


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